SUNSET
神保伸太郎
Recently i lost a person very dear to my heart, not going in to much detail it kind of face fucked my brain in to the oblivion,, however i do feel like i have learned from this experience, no matter how much you give no matter how much you try everything is out of your control, and by releasing that i have more and more lost not faith in humanity but at least lost trust in my surroundings knowing full well that even if i try to i cant change the future, people are people they are all in there head spaces thinking about thousands of things per day including fucked up things that no one should think about and what am i supposed to do? stop them? even if i wish i cant, i feel futile like a little baby without arms or that one meme of that anime girl in the bed looking like a nugget, i cant do anything but “sit and watch it burn” (9) and that destroys me
HOWEVER there are things to love other than humans for example video games, acoustic interest, animals, food, anime, those are things that cant just break you… well anime can but still these are things without soul but still made to make you think they have one, for example i am deeply inLOVE with the anime “welcome to the nhk” as you could prob tell ;-; because of its perfect writing animation and message, i guess i formed a deep connection with it because it reflects what i want in life, to not be alone with my problems,a misaki to save me :steamsad: (not rlly) also the music in the anime is amazing but still at the end of the day its not real and prob never will be
